There will always be times when the worst you have ever felt gets topped.
When you feel like no one could possibly know what you are going through.
Well, guess what? They can't. Reality newsflash.
What's true though, is this: It's not always going to be like this and you are not going to feel like this for ever. In the future there will be a time when you feel happy and feel like you belong.
But only when you want it to come, because your life is of your own making.
I passionately believe in that. So if somewhere deep down you feel like you don't want to make the effort to climb out of your hole of negativity (thanks), you just better get rid of yourself right now.
JUST KIDDING. Sometimes there is no strength to get out of there, to do it yourself.
But if you keep trying, good things will come your way again, because people can make each other's day and someone will make your sucky day too, if you're just able to accept that.
People need each other and someone will need you too, even if you cannot imagine that. Not necessarily for you to spend the rest of their life with. Maybe just to brighten their day with your smile when it was a complete mess before.
Reality newsflash II: you actually do matter.
And if you just keep believing in that, you can face the black&white. :)

Love,
R