Well.. what is there to tell..
If I would say today has not been nice at all, I will do my great afternoon with my love wrong.
Today was the day we have been together for 21 months. I think it is great that we have made it to this point, because even though we love each other very deeply, there have been some tough times.
There have also been tough times for me personally, and if it seems as if your loved one is almost never doing good, that can be quite exhausting for you. So to make a long story short, I am glad we made it this far and I hope that our love can overcome the differences for another long time. I really do. :)

But then, my day got sucky. For no apparent reason, I did not feel like being productive anymore. I actually had to prepare a lecture I am having tomorrow and study for a literature test for German which is very important, but I did not even get myself to do one of them. I was just.. feeling empty and hollow. I did not quite see any colours. My mum was at a parents' night at school about (my 'future' after) this school year and my dad was there too, with her! Though I thought that was great, I would have wanted to be there, to do something for me together with both of them. But unfortunately, this event was parent-only.
Well, so my mum was not there to talk to and I could not get myself to do anything I was supposed to be doing. I called my love, because I suddenly began having this insecure breakdown and the conversation did not end comforting. I hung up, because I felt hurt. That is more the case. Actually, I know I should not call him when I feel like that, it will only create tension. But still I was hoping he would be loving and comforting about me feeling insecure or something. I don't even know exactly what I was expecting. I just know I have to make myself feel better again.

Well, that was a message somewhat less colourful, right? I'm sorry, but I'm trying to listen to my own message I posted the day before yesterday. Keep seeing the colours. :)
I try. But I guess everybody does.

Goodnight.

Love,
R